Why Mommy?July 11, 2007
Why certain people are put through some tough shit.
And I have indeed yelled, screamed and cried “Why Mommy?” often in the past 19 years.
This time, it’s someone else’s mommy! It’s always someone’s Mommy…you have to think of that. Seriously.
WhyMommy is no exception.
She has cancer. She is kicking cancer’s ass. And I want to show her my support.
I have been debating on joining this “team of wonderworkers” for a few weeks now (since I found them) because my history with cancer is not bright. I lost my ‘Mommy’ to it…19 years ago.
And I didn’t want to be a downer. I still am deathly afraid of the “C Word”. The fucker. So I avoid stuff like this. And really, I don’t even know her and who am I to talk about this anyway?
Then I read this. And then, as I’m reading it, I realized I wished I could have supported my mother more. I pray she knew how much I loved her and wanted her to fight… That made me think I need to show my support for the team once again. For WhyMommy and for all the other women out there who have been touched by this fucker of a battle.
Some of us have witnessed loss and some of us have witnessed the wonder of the cure.
Treatments have changed. Time has given researchers and scientists and doctors new tools to fight the shithead that is cancer. And I have witnessed women surviving the fight. Kicking its ass and taking names and numbers.
If my Mother chose to fight, she would still be here. But the treatments back then were tough and they made her more sick than the actual disease. And she couldn’t do it. And she hated losing her womanhood. Her breasts. As strong as she was. She couldn’t fight it anymore.
She didn’t want to lose her beauty. But she never could. She was smokin’. I wish she knew how gorgeous she was…even after her surgeries and hair loss and weight fluctuations.
Which leads me here. I want to help all the women out there. I want them to know they are strong and gorgeous and can fight this. They can do it. And they have my support. My heart. Because this is so close to my heart.
So I offer my whole heart and my support to the woman today. That ‘Gorgeous Mommy’ over at Toddler Planet, who is raising a beautiful family and beating this. I want her to know I send her all my love and all my wishes for a speedy ass kickin’. Because the faster she kicks its ass, the faster she can get back to her self again!
Do it for all the women out there! You make us proud.
Join the team. Show your support and send some love.