Not Gaining BalanceDecember 5, 2007
I think I have forgotten the meaning of this space.
Instead of “gaining” that balance I so deserve, I am anxiously teetering upon the high wire of life and losing that balance I am striving to find.
I think I need to regroup.
Is it bad that I fall off the wagon so many times?…I do seem to eventually find it and mend it’s wheels to hop back on and continue this life’s journey.
I’m sorry to be such a downer.
I just finished Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. I want to shake that woman’s hand. I don’t want to have her journey in particular, (although crying in the bathroom seems to be the way to go for a married woman) but I wish I was brave enough to find my own journey, and actually follow it. Or at least be happy with the journey I’m already on.
This book has made me think hard about my path again. I am questioning it’s direction right now and as my psychic once said; “I tell you what I see, but you have the power to change what you don’t like.”
I don’t like what I see.
I don’t like how I feel again.
I know I don’t like myself right now.
I need to reassess.
I need to straighten out the path I’m on.
I’ll be a happier blogger, I promise.