Monday

If it weren’t for this coolness, I’d have nothing to say….

Thank you Canadian Flake for such an honor!

You simply must go read the super nice things this woman has said about me. My family doesn’t even say things like this…

I truly am thankful.

I’m supposed to send this out to people…but honestly, I’d like to send it to all of you!

So, I’m only picking three women who have truly been so loving to me in personal e-mails and comments and just all around full hearted, sincerity…

Cate, you gorgeous woman you. I don’t even have the words to express how awesome I think you are. The way you spread love is infectious and I adore you wholeheartedly.

Rachel, you too sistah. I am always amazed by your heart and love. It pours out of you in your comments and in your blog. Ia m so grateful to have ‘met’ you.

Margaret, you have supported me in e-mails and comments and just by being so truly sweet. You make me want to fly to you right now and give you a super duper hug. I can NOT wait to meet you in person when I finally get to the ‘south’…

Girls, you so rock.

Friends, you all rock, but it’s Monday and I’m still asleep from the crazy weekend I had. You can ignore me if you wish, I know I have been a terrible blogger friend lately. And I haven’t been as faithful as I would like to be in reading your blogs…I am trying so hard to get back into it again.

I love you all dear friends…

Frisky Kitten

Hi.

It’s my time to remind you to get to feelin’ yourself up.

Need some good Friskin’ Music complete with cute video?

Good Job!

Want some technique help?
Go here

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Oh! And I’d like to thank my good blog friend Janet for bestowing this beauty upon me!

Isn’t it pretty? And meaningful too. She said some really cool things about me! Thanks Janet!

I’d love to give it to all of you, but it’s very early in the morning here in NY and I got a terrible night’s sleep.

(What do you do with a 4 year old who has suddenly become petrified of the dark? And who has an answer for everything, so you can’t even persuade her a teensy bit!)

So this award goes to the first four people who I ever started really ‘chatting’ with through blogging!

Chelle, my sweet, sweet friend. If I lived closer, we’d be having playdates and coffee every day. I truly adore you! (and c’mon, isn’t my banner so friggin’ cool?)

Mel, my very first bloggy friend. I’ll never forget that she was my first and bestest buddy online!

Southern Fried Mom, I have always thought you rock! I think of you every day.

Devilish Southern Belle, like my sister separated at birth…I really hope we get to hang one day!

Love you all..Did you girls frisk today?

I feel pretty!

Thanks to my sweetest friend Chelle.

See that new image header?

She designed it! And I adore it. It makes me feel sassy!

She worked on the idea on her own and surprised me with the image. I am in love.

See why I love blogging so?

I could never leave. You all make me feel so much better about things.

And you listen to my blather. All my complaining.

I promise, I will snap out of it. But thank you for putting up with me.

I hope I can be there for you friends, like you are there for me.

I wish we could all have a sassy margarita together…

Chelle, I wish I could repay you somehow…You so rock sistah.

Thanks from the bottom of my pink, satin bra!

WordPressing

I’m still not sure I like it here.

Blogging has become a chore here and I don’t know if it’s me or if it’s WP.

I am not literate enough in CSS to upgrade and really “pimp” my place up and I’m not feeling motivated to write crap here, especially if the place I’m writing the crap doesn’t motivate me.

Or maybe I’m just having a pity party and I’m down.

Any suggestions?

Anyone have any good things to write about?

After all it shouldn’t be about what this place ‘looks like’, but what I have to say. Right?

I’m even ignoring my Reader lately.

Gah. I’m in a slump.

2008 is not starting out nicely, really.

Ignore me…I’ll be happier sooner or later…Or is blogging losing it’s luster?

Happy Fall and all

So. I kick Donkey Ass according to Slacker-Mom.

I thank you from the bottom of my boot-ay. This may be the craziest award I have eva won. You know I love that.

This past week has left me with not a giggle to spare. I am drawn out. Beat. This made me smile. It means a lot to me, this Donkey Butt Blog Bling.

You know who I think kicks Donkey Butt? GHD, Seattle Mamacita, Tiffany, DSB, RWA and Pamela…Plus all the friends in my entire Google Reader, but I can’t link here all day.

It’s fall again.

I find that this season always makes me feel renewed, refreshed. Ready to begin again.

But as I look back at years past. I haven’t gone very far in my personal quest for balance.

I’m happy, don’t get me wrong. I have a great life. Aside from the anxiousness, unresolved anger and depression that sprouts up here and there.

There’s nothing in my life now that I want to change. However.

I am missing some aspects of my past life that I wish I had never given up. And I am all too afraid it may be too late to go there again.

So as much as I’d like to feel refreshed. I am feeling regret. Regret for things not nourished. Regret for decisions I’ve made with a clouded mind. Regret for crap that has happened to me far out of my control. Still, regret.

Fa started dance class last week. I am missing my old days. As a dancer. I am feeling rueful for some silly changes I made, that I should have thought longer and harder about. The floodgates were already opened with preschool starting and this just topped it all off. It’s very hard to hold back tears in front of total strangers.

And preschool is fucking hard, man.

So, I am setting a goal for myself. And I am taking this time, right now. To try to stop crying for a split second and to start going to the gym while the Fa Fa is in school. It will give me some time to myself and help me feel good again. I am going to strengthen up my outside as I moderate my insides…By Christmas, I want to be prepared for anything. I want to have flatter abs too.

I may even take a dance class. When I’m ready of course.

Whooda Thunk?

WhyMommy gave me this.

I’m honored.

This award comes from a woman who is dealing with some hardcore fighting. I mean, she took the time out of her serious ass kicking to give me this award. Where does she find the time?

And why would she think of me? With her entire team on her side, I am just one small brick in that wall of love and support for her. And she chose lil ‘ole me for an award. Honored is not a strong enough word.

Venerated.

As I wait for each of her new posts to learn more about IBC, or to watch her from the sidelines thoroughly enjoying her babies. I am in awe of her.

I am learning from her. And she is presenting me with “Nice Matters”. I am not worthy.

Awe.

So, to continue with the WhyMommy theme…I am presenting the entire group from ‘Team WhyMommy‘ to accept this “Nice Matters” award. Go team!

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And because I am touched once again. Go here and read this story. Then, if you find it in your heart to start a pen pal of sorts. Do so. It would make a grandma (and a fellow blogger) quite happy!

Insomnia with a side of Bloggy Love

Good thing for Ann(ie)’s insomnia. And mine.

1. Who is your man? The Pro.
2. How long have you been together? Married for 6 years, together for 11.
3. How long dated? 5 years.
4. How old is your man? 37 and older than me!
5. Who eats more? He does. And he still stays stick-figure like. Damnit.
6. Who said “I love you” first? He did.
7. Who is taller? He is 6 foot 1 inch.
8. Who sings better? He’s got a pretty good voice.He likes to sing to Depeche Mode and the Gorillaz, I sound like a cat in heat.
9. Who is smarter? He is way smarter. He’s got this knowledge about anything that he stirs up at just the right moments. I always think of things to say…after the fact.
10. Who’s temper is worse? Mine.
11. Who does the laundry? Me, but he still complains I shrink things.
12..Who does the dishes? Kenmore.
13. Who sleeps on the right side of the bed? How are you facing it? If you are in it, he is on the right side, if you are looking down at it from the foot of the bed, I am on the right side.
14. Who pays the bills? Me, but he makes the money.
15. Who has bigger feet? He does. Ginormous gunboats.
16. Who has longer hair? Me.
17. Who is better with the computer? He is Mr. Fixit.
18. Who mows the lawn? Him.
19. Who cooks dinner? Him.
20. Who drives when you are together? Him. He gets car sick.
21. Who pays when you go out? He does.
22. Who is most stubborn? Mostly me. But he’s pretty good at it too.
23. Who is the first to admit when they are wrong? Me.
24. Whose parents do you see the most? His.
25. Who kissed who first? We kissed each other.
26. Who asked who out? He did. Then he wanted to cancel because the Yankees were in the World Series. Good thing he didn’t cancel. I would have never gone out with him again.
27. Who proposed? He did.
28. Who is more sensitive? We are equal there.
29. Who has more friends? He does.
30. Who has more siblings? Him.
31. Who wears the pants in the family? I do damnit. Wait, I’m wrong. It’s Fa.

*****

And…Canadian Flake awarded this really ‘nice’ award to me this weekend…I am honored…
This is the second time that she has said some really great things about me and it means a lot. Thank you!

So I want to share some ‘nice’ love with you…I don’t know how many of these I’m supposed to give out, but I could just link to my entire G~Reader and be done with it…

CCJellybeans: I have been reading her blog for a while now and I am amazed at how sweet and honest she is. She always finds time to respond to comments and she is very sincere.

Terri@SteelMagnolia: I love her humor and her honesty and her little boy with the “heart of gold”. She is teaching me a lot about motherhood and she doesn’t even know it….

Summer’s Blog: This woman has always had something supportive to say to me and sometimes when I least expected it…I am thankful for her sincerity and honesty and she has shown me that people can be sincere and nice and caring. Even when they are miles away.

*****

Then, then, I wake up this morning to this from GHD:

Freakin’ Awesome! I am amazed because I feel like her wonderful blog “So What Do You Do All Day?” (heh heh) just popped out of nowhere and here she is awarding me with this!

Again, My G~reader should get linked~ not just a few but all…I love everyone’s blogs that’s why I read them obsessively and get into trouble by The Pro because I’m always strapped to the laptop.

Belle: I seriously do love her blog. It’s cool, edgy and she loves roller derby. I live vicariously through her with that one! We seem to have a lot in common and I wish we lived in the same state!

Margaret@Just Me: She is so funny and easy to read. She’s honest and edgy and I feel for her neighbors once they hit her last nerve!! Plus! She’s getting married soon…and her stories about the preparations are really awesome.

Ann(ie): Who doesn’t love Happy Hour? I love her sense of humor and anyone who spells their name with parentheses has to be pretty damn hysterical. Plus she really has some great stuff to write about. I love her honesty and that seems to be the real selling point for me doesn’t it?

There ya go!

Like I said, I wish I could give these blingy-thingies to everyone but I’d be here all day and I’m tired and coughing and ugh…I don’t deserve these awards…really.

And I don’t even eat sausage!!!

But Jess thinks I am better than sausage, on a Sunday no less!

Then, she gave me this:

For this post. Who knew it would make such waves? I am so honored for her acknowledgment, but more so for her comment to that post. She is an all around great ‘nominatrix’ and ‘commentatrix’! I adore her.

Her comment got me thinking, it got Sara thinking and it made me feel so much better about that point in my life and where it has led me today.

More importantly, it has led others to that post who in turn left more wonderful comments that lifted my heart up high and put a smile on my face!

Have I told you lately that I love you all?

So thank you Jessica! I am forever grateful for your true words of wisdom, your openness, your heart and your blog bling!